confession of a marine engineer's girl

today i wanna talk about love story- my love story.

i know my fiancee back in 2005, and i was 15 and he was 19 years old. i was so young, could you believe it? yeah, i couldn't believe in myself too because i was so small and fragile and i thought it would be just a puppy love.

first date

and he went for his practical training for 8 months and we dont really match each other, we fought a lot while he was away. i like to make him angry, and i like when he shows to me that he cares, being a baby i am. :) and as soon as he came back, i immediately fell in love at first sight.


it wasn't puppy love after all, but eternal love Insyaallah.




at 1616 days with Shahril A Hamid, i can feel that he embraces the inner beauty in me, Alhamdulillah. he helped me through my ups and downs.being a young adult, i just like to try new things and being a protective and loving fiancé, he always gives me advices on my way to be a young mature woman.

sometimes, he acts like my dad. shhh. don't tell him dat!

the reason i typed this entry is to give recognition to him as my guardian angel that has been loving me so much from the day he took my hand and said that he will take care of me for the rest of his life.


i always asked myself, kenapa jodoh aku dengan dia. well, i mean, he is a seafarer, someone who is always far away from me, and can only make me happy by his phone calls and sweet SMS's. he cant be by my side when i'm in my worst situation and cant share be there for me when i wanted to share my happiness.



but i always believe that he is indeed near to my heart, i always trust his unconditionally love for me, and most importantly, he's working for our future.



i really am thankful to God for giving me such a nice guy as a life and soul partner. missing someone is a wonderful feeling, if u know how to deal with it. and his work makes me appreciate him more and more everyday because i know that we wont appreciate someone until we actually lose that someone. not that i lost him before, but his work gives us time and space to miss each other.


sayang,


it's not fair for me to say that you are cruel for not being here because i know that in your heart, you really wanna be with me here too. 


bila bosan dekat sini, b boleh keluar jalan jalan and hangout with friends, but you're working everyday (Sunday too) and tak pernah sekali pun b dengar you mengeluh tentang kerja you. All that you ever say is that Shah penat la sayang, harini banyak kerja. bak kata you, everyday is Monday kan? 


it's unfair to say that you can't entertain me when i can watch movie at cinema but all you can do on board is playing your PS3. 


it's unfair  to say that you're unfair to me when i can choose what i wanna eat but you can only eat what the chief cook cooks without a single complain.



i will love you forever darling, and be there for you whenever you need me. i'll support you even the world is against us. thank you for your undivided attention to me, sayang. missing you so much, see you in another 5 months.

hugs and kisses, ur fiancée.

p/s. sorry for the over-romantic entry, but i miss him too bits!

xoxo